critisize me!

gosh… im gonna be turning twenty soon and im having flash backs of what i’ve done in my life so far… nowadays i see everyone going somewhere… doing something… and i feel left behind…
i cant really say that i have achieved much (cept my alevels results *wink). i somehow feel that i’ve been living a very meaningless life… with many uneventful days passing by. clubbing, sleeping, working, eating… and the cycle goes on… you know people say how u go through your teenage years being confused… well, im at that point now. its either im a late bloomer or im going through “mid-life” crisis early. i wonder if its just me over analyzing or if other people have the same thoughts running through their minds. do we all go through life living like droids, waking up each morning doing the same thing over and over again? maybe its me… not seizing the day.. grabbing the bull by its horns… i guess its time i do some thing bout it, dont u think??
but where should i start….